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Doakan kami berjaya mendapat yg terbaik, kejayaan yang cemerlang untuk exam Paediatrics kami minggu hadapan! Ameen!

Ya Allah, 

berkatilah ilmu yang telah Kau berikan kepada kami,

Berikanlah ketenangan untuk jiwa kami, 

Kau terangkanlah minda kami untuk menerima ilmuMu seperti terangnya matahariMu,

Kekalkan ilmu yg telah kami pelajari di dalam diri kami

dan berikanlah petunjukMu di kala kami memerlukannya.

Ameen, ameen, Ya Rabbal 'Alameen

*6 hari lagi untuk menghadam habis-habisan buku ni!!

Happy birthday azryl gemuk!

Salam wrt wrb!! Lama tak menulis sini, been busy with studying i would say. HAHA! tp nak ingat punyalah susah. adeyhh. doakan supaya exam nanti segalanya akan dipermudahkan olehNya inshaAllah.

Well, today is Azryl's 7th birthday! 06 March 2005! dah 7 tahun berlalu, cepatnya. budak yg kecik kepala leper tu dah besar gemuk tinggi dah ni. huisyh, rindu betul. moga Azryl happy selalu, jadi anak yg soleh, belajar rajin2 dan jgn malas2 kayh. jaga mak abah betul2 kat rumah tu. hehe. Score betul2 exam nanti, biar salu dapat no 1. haahaa!

RINDU semua org kat rumah! <3<3 especially dak gemuk ni!

Are we typical?

''The researchers conclude that a male, 28-year-old Han Chinese man is the most typical person on the planet. There are 9 million of them.'' Wanna know how they came out with this result? Watch the interesting video below!

7 Billion: Are You Typical? — National Geographic Magazine @ Yahoo! Video

I have a dream

I… I used to have a dream
Though thrown away and torn
and looks worn out
I kept it within my heart as if it was a treasure

Sometimes, though someone laughed at me
for an unknown reason
behind my back
I had to endure, I could endure
For that day…

You always tell me worriedly
That pointless dream is a poison
That this world is like a book, where the end is already written
That it is a reality that can’t be reversed

That’s right, I… I have a dream
I believe in that dream.
Just you watch me.
I can proudly confront
That coldly standing wall called fate.

Some day, I’ll climb over that wall
And fly high to that sky
Even this heavy world cannot bind me.
Let’s spend the day when I’ll laugh at the end of my life together…

You always tell me worriedly
That pointless dream is a poison
That this world is like a book, where the end is already written
That it is a reality that can’t be reversed

That’s right, I… I have a dream
I believe in that dream.
Just you watch me.
I can proudly confront
That coldly standing wall called fate.

Some day, I’ll climb over that wall
And fly high to that sky
Even this heavy world cannot bind me.
Let’s spend the day when I’ll laugh at the end of my life together…

here we go..

Salam wrt wrb!

Yeay, done with psychiatry! Alhamdulillah, 6 weeks just went by so quickly! tapi yang takutnya, we still have a written paper and the final OSCE in May which we only have about 2 days, yes 2 days! to cover everything in psychiatry. May Allah ease our way, inshaAllah!

So, next........ Paedriatrics for another 6 weeks. I've no expectation or whatsoever, the only thing for now is to study hard and just do my best! 60% of the final marks is coming from the end of rotation exam, how scary is that kan!

Well, please pray for all of us, the next 3-4 months will be the most torturous time for us as RCSI medical students! Seriously serious ni! Lepas, paedriatrics, OnG pulak, then 2 days after habis rotation tu, terus exam!

Takpe, so now, focus is all I need. This might be the last Friday for me to chill and relax without thinking much about my studies. Ok, ok, got to go!~ Need to spend more time for other 'beneficial' things, LOL.
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Finally, Mubarak has stepped down after for god sake how many yearsss he has been up there. Now what is left for them to do is to elect the best candidate to replace him, and hopefully it will not be a tough one for them. The rule of thumb is easy, pilih ketua yang ikut dan guna hukum Islam and of course who is not a US ally. May Allah swt ease the next step for them. ameen.

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This particular video by NigaHiga seriously reminds me of the world of blogging which kinda like the 'in' thing now in Malaysia. Memang sangat kelakar tapi sangat lah betul. check it out yo!

too much of myself lately

Salam wrt wrb. Lama tak menulis kat sini. Tak ada mood. Sebab tak sihat. =((

Demam yang teruk jugakla, myalgia segala. been drinking bottles of lucozade, swallowing entah berapa grams paracetamol dah setakat ni, dan makan ubat batuk and selesama juge. Alhamdulillah, now rasa makin kebah dah selepas tidur selama 9 jam straight lepas maghrib tadi. nak sihat dah inshaAllah.

Last week, Ili, syikin and McTi, kawan lama dr MRSM datang melawat Dublin. Seronok spent time dengan diaorg, rasa macam kembali ke zaman muda remaja time SPM! weeeeeeeee, rindu giler kat maktab. oh no!
Pergi bawak dieorg jalan-jalan cari makan je kat sekitar dublin, dari proton house, ke nyonya ke buffet 6.50 bawah lidl. haha, sedapp!

@ nyonya's restaurant: makan butter prawn, sotong goreng, daging kapitan, nasi greng telur dan ayam almond thai. thumbs up!

us outside the restarant.

Then, Ili and I (yes we had a date!) went to Aladdin show kat Gaiety Theatre belakang RCSI tu, it wasmy first experience watching a proper English theatre (excluding RCSI drama, LOL)! best gilerr, the singing, dancing and the props were amazing! It's worth the money spent as the performance was way beyond my expectation. ye la, ingatkan macam menyanyi-nyanyi then cakap-cakap gitu aje sbb awal-awal stage dia macam kecil. rupa-rupanya, seronok! plus, dieorang guna lagu-lagu syok kot, baby by JB pun ada, billionaire, bad romance, keep on believin', banyak lagi yg syok-syok. best2! tak boleh tangkap gambar sebenarnya dalam tu, tp sempatlah snap sikit-sikit. weee.

ni stage sebelum start. mmg seriusly dull giler!

kami selca! XD

opening song

ni mak aladdin

final song, keep on believin'. tiru glee!~ owh, btw aladdin dieorg ni tinggal kat peking, china! HAHA

there goes my weekend last week! alhamdulillah sempat siapkan my essay. tinggal one more case nak kena buat, then have to study for my OSCE exam next week on Thursday! Ya Allah, risaunya eden! 

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And at the same time, banyak sangat peristiwa yang berlaku di pelusuk dunia yang di sebelah sana. Dalam aku bergembira kat sini, mcm mana lah dengan saudara-saudara aku di Mesir sana? Cukupkah makan minum mereka? keselematan mereka terjaminkah? Risau sangat tp doa sahaja yg dpt diberikan sekarang ni. Moga misi Malaysia dalam proses evacuation rakyat Malaysia di sana akan berjaya inshaAllah, moga tiada lagi pertumpahan darah yang berlaku. ameen, ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alameen. 

Udah-udahlah tu Mubarak, tak sedar diri lagi, kau dah menyusahkan rakyat kau, kononnya tak mahu bertanding lagi, tapi still nak kekalkan jawatan sehingga September? Sah-sah rakyat dah nak suruh kau turun, buat lagi muka tebal. geram betul! Sedar-sedarlah umur pun dah 82 tahun, ni lah contoh manusia yang kononnya dia sahaja yang berkuasa, tp sebenarnya kerana dialah, hidup lebih sengsara. 

Moga kawan-kawan aku di sana dan semua saudara seagamaku kuat dlm menghadapi ujian ini. 

Hallucinations???

Salam wrt wrb. 

The Nightmare, by Henry Fuseli (1781) 

Took a nap between 11.30am until 12.50pm, and guess what happened when I tried to wake up from my sleep? I felt someone/ something was sitting on my chest, squeezing and compressing my body as if I'm their greatest enemy, holding my hands and legs tightly against the bed not wanting me to move even for an inch! i was able to open my eyes twice to look around the room, there was nothing unusual and i was quite sure it was not a dream but a vivid visualization of reality. (i kinda felt scary and afraid if i saw something which I should not be seeing!) I resisted against the pressure with all my might but to no avail and I certainly could feel that someone was trying to tickle me here and there; gosh it just made me annoyed, irritated and agitated even more! I could feel that ''the thing'' did say something to me but it was all unclear and senseless. I recited Ayat Kursi quite a few times, but strangely the pressure was getting more intense especially when I read the last part of the verse, 'Wa la ya'uduhu hifdhuhuma Wa Huwal 'Aliyul-Adheem' with the meaning of  ''....and He feeleth No fatigue in guarding And preserving them, For He is the Most High. The Supreme (in glory)." He is the most Powerful and no one is more Powerful than Him. Alhamdulillah, immediately after that, everything went back to normal but the worst thing is, my whole body was aching all over!

I've been experiencing this so-called 'sleep paralysis' phenomenon (Sleep paralysis consists of a period of inability to perform voluntary movements either at sleep onset (called hypnogogic) or upon awakening (called hypnopompic) sometimes with hallucinations) or the layman term ''Ditindih Hantu/Jin'' numerous times either when trying to sleep or waking up since I was in boarding school years ago, and I do believe this event can easily be explained logically; physiologically and pathologically. I still remembered I heard loud voices around 2 in the morning while trying to get up from my sleep, I was paralyzed for about 5 minutes and the weird thing was, my friend was studying on my bed just next to sleeping-me and didn't even realize how hard I was struggling and putting my whole effort to move. LOL. At first, I was terrified, petrified, mortified, stupefied (quoted from the movie, A Beautiful Mind, lol) by the whole situation that happened but eventually I did get used to it over time. Well the thing is I haven't got this for years now, and in fact because of I just learned those two terms during the psychiatry rotation I somehow could relate these bombastic words with me. Hoho, poyo.

Tapi kan.. there's a part of me that still believes this thing is caused by syaitan and jin. I am seriously serious about being serious here, hurm seriously! Entahlah, sebabnya I acknowledged the greatest solution for it mesti ayat Al-Quran. There was one time I tried not to recite anything and just resisted the force but it just got stronger and stronger. Pastu, kadang-kadang pernah dengar orang cakap-cakap jugak macam gelak-gelak beramai-ramai. Then, kadang-kadang mesti bulu roma berdiri tegak. Cuak la jugak kan. HAHAHA. 

Entahlah, as my friend mentioned few days ago, kalau kat Ireland confirmlah dieorg kata it's just hypnopompic hallucination kan. Kalau kat Malaysia, mestilah hantu raya kononnya berbulu hitam yang lebat. Adehhh. 

Apa-apa pun, kena balanced kot. Aku percaya benda ni sememangnya just a scientific phenomenon tapi aku juga percaya involvement syaitan or jin juga. Dunia ni kan kita kongsi juga dengan jin, tak gitu? 

Apa-apapun, kita tahu dan yakin kepada siapa nak minta pertolongan kan, hanya Allah sahaja yang dapat menolong hambaNya, bukan jin mahupun syaitan.

"Aku berlindung pada Pemelihara manusia, Raja manusia, Tuhan manusia, Daripada kejahatan pembisik yang menyelinap, Yang membisikkan di dalam dada manusia, Daripada jin dan manusia." (114:1-6)